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do you ever have days where you close your eyes for a second hoping that you will wake up?

Posted on 2005.02.23 at 11:35
Mood: numbnumb
Music: none, my speakers aren't working and i might die.
last night should have been fun. i was with some of my favorite people, those who i probably could never be pissed at in normal life, but everything was really pissing me off. i do not like bad highs, but it could only be expected i guess.

i really dislike being at my dad's house. the only interaction i have with him is him bothering me about something. both he and my mom has this uncanny way of making me feel like i'm a bad person if i don't get madder at myself than they are at me, for whatever i do wrong and they've been sucessful lately. yesterday morning i couldn't even stand to be in my house with him, so i just went driving in the hills for like an hour. i felt kind of emo. or maybe just lonely? i don't know, it was better than staying at home and listening to my dad bitch.

on a brighter note, today should be good. after taking cassi to school i am going out to fairfield to see the one and only phan tea ivy. i expect some good reminiscing of our coldelizabeth, mr. chisari, chietnamewish days. the drive will be worth it, partly because i miss that girl, partly because sitting around the house alone is bound to get me thinking.

sorry for the complaints. i've been in a bit of a rut lately. happens every now and then.


chocolate_horse at 2005-02-23 20:26 (UTC) (Link)
sorry :(

ok, i know how you feel about your parents... i think everyone's parents do that, so know that you're not alone.
backsdraw at 2005-02-24 01:57 (UTC) (Link)
jess_is_here at 2005-02-24 02:33 (UTC) (Link)
backsdraw at 2005-02-24 05:36 (UTC) (Link)
damn you with your scratches
im gonna leave a fat hicky.
Raoul Duke
shmiley at 2005-02-24 03:15 (UTC) (Link)
I see you at partys and stuff sometimes.
driving around in the hills is the best.
katyfrancis at 2005-02-24 05:41 (UTC) (Link)
jessie, its been so long since i've seen you! anyways, i just wanted to comment because your new icon is SO adorable- it looks like a magazine photograph or something! i mean, really professional, its really cute.
jess_is_here at 2005-02-24 08:31 (UTC) (Link)
aww thanks babe! it's a photobooth, but we can pretend it's professional. how have you been doing? congrats on nyu by the way (i know you got in a while ago but i don't think i've talked to you since).
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