jess (jess_is_here) wrote,

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why do i suck?

okay, so for anyone who thought that standardized tests were just an evil tool for asessing our math and verbal skills (or amount of money one has to spend on a prep class) i have found an unexpected skill that the SAT has kicked my ass on TWICE. carefulness and lack of spaciness. my experiences with taking the sat two weeks ago, and getting my psat scores this week have shown that i'm pretty good at the actual test content, but when it comes to filling in bubbles, I SUCK. i'm sure you all heard my story of filling in the wrong section on my sat last weekend, and when i looked over my score report this weekend i just hit my head and said "oh jessie". i ruined what could have been a really good score by getting one off on the bubbles for the critical reading (which i already thought was an evil section but now have even more contempt for) and did really badly on that section because of it!! the sad thing is i would have gotten all but one of those questions right had i just moved them up one number! oh man my spaciness really bites me in the ass sometimes. at least math was pretty good (although i should have done better i think, because the two mistakes i made, both on the non-m.c. part were so careless) and on writing skills i suprised myself (it was the only one which i actually did better on than last year, which is really sad. i think perhaps soph year was my peak and now i am coming back down). eh, whatever, it was only practice sort of. it just is so frustrating that because of my inability to work properly with an answer sheet i was one point away from the california cut off for national merit semi-finalist. oof, i shake my head at myself.

in other news i spent the whole weekend debating, and i am taking the morning off to recupertate from three days of interval training of the mind. (and by that i mean 1 hour of mad critical thinking and analysis, one or more hours of sitting in a cold room staring off into space, diong bio outlines [of which i got very few done] or playing ghosts, hearts, egyptian rat screw, or "crazy jews" with toven, li and priya). priya and i made it to semi-finals, and lost on a split vote in that round to some guys who had been doing debate for four years and therefore should not have been in novice. they were the only team that beat us though, so yay. at least we have a pretty trophy.

yes so that is my life as of now. this week is going to keel me because of the massive amount of pre-break homework i will have, and the fact that i am still behind from this weekend. i better get a move on some of this.

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