December 14th, 2004


december fourteenth, 2004. by jessie brown

okay, i don't want to memorize lines for hedda (i don't know how to memorize lines! i've never acted before) or finish up my mc (which i hope i will get an extension on for debate, but i'm not sure weather to risk it) so here i am again. oh yes, there was a time where i would go months without clicking that little update button on my screen but now it has become a daily thing. an addiction once again.

why i feel complelled to introduce my entries i do not know.

today was a good day. swimming actually wasn't great, because i learned i have to go first for the relay next monday, meaning i don't get that exhilirating feeling that only comes from jumping off the block with a relay start after just cheering on your teammate, but whatever, i'll survive. i had double free period first so i came home and slept until about 10, something i definitely needed. history was uneventful as usual, and english was sad because we had to recount gatsby's death and discuss all of the depressing revelations that his character represented. when i finished that book last night i was so upset i had to go back to the first chapter and read it again, just so that everything could be okay once more! oh man, i am such a nerd but whatever. i think that has been a long established fact.

i went to book club at lunch despite the fact that i am barely even into the book that we discussed (and i probably won't finish it).but whatever, seeing people get excited or just discuss books is fun, and doing it while eating free noah's bagels is even better. next book is middlesex and i can't wait! i'm definitely going to read it again!

double math was amusing today with oran's injury (not that the fact that he was hurt was at all amusing, but the jokes that came out of it certainly were) and mr. jordan's presence (we were all waiting for a jordan-purewal joke-off but were dissapointed). of course that was all cancelled out by the fact that we learned are really easy concept but spent about half an hour explaining it to one person who didn't get it (sorry, that is bitchy of me) and then started doing parametric equations. boo...i've never liked those and harder versions of them don't seem promising.

tutoring actually didn't go overtime today. going back to little bentley is still so strange. back to the bathrooms in which we hid so many times while cutting chisari spanish, climbed over the stall's and saw obscene body parts of the opposite sex for the first time (haha). i always go back there with some strange hope that mrs. hogland or peter or mother theresa will be gone, will have found a job better than yelling at kids for eating off the woodchips, handing out plastic gloves for garbage duty or choosing which child is the most deserving of the biggest pickle for childcare snack. but no. they are still there. peter'still standing alone on the grass with his pink shirt and stubby arms stuffed in his pocket, mother theresa still sits the stair railing looking confused while muttering "eggg---scuuuss-mmeeee, no playing in the oval!" (today she took a break from that to give me a hug! oh god!),and mrs hogland hunting down little mischeif-making children whereever they can be found. oh man, memories.

enough reminiscing, now i really need to do homework. (i guess i also need a closing for my entries as well?)
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Another Survey
x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]

What's your name? Jessie
Birthplace? Oakland
Age? 16
Age you act? anywhere from 12 to and old lady depending on the time and the plance
Current location: my room
Eye color: Brown
Hair color: Brown
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? Lefty
Zodiac sign? pices
Height? why is this important, beetches.

[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]

Your heritage/nationality: everytype of european you can think of. mostly russian and irish though.
Your hair: brown..was this not already asked?
Your fears: failure, pain, knifes, darkness, bees, blahdiblahdiblah, i could go on forever. i am just a scared person.
Your perfect room: warm, clean, nice smelling, filled with my friends and lots of colors.
What you practically do in a day: wake up, swim, school, tutor, waste time online (i need to stop doing so much of this!), homework, practice sax (i actually need to get better at that!), read, sleep.

[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]

Words you overuse? like, um, yeah, okay
Phrases you overuse? i don't know, oh my god, what the fuck
Your first thought when you wake up: i want to go back to bed. maybe i won't swim today. (although i usually end up going).
Your greatest accomplishment: ehhh....anyone who has seen me drunk has probably heard me ramble on and on about this one. lol.
Something you want to do: sleep, have 5 more hours in the day.

[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]

Pepsi or Coke: DIET COKE
McDonald's or Burger Kings: yuck
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: xxxtina
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Adidas or Nike: MY adidas!
Black or white: pink
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)): bills
Burgers or hot dogs: veggie burgers!
Egypt or France: france
Rock or rap: rock

[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]

Smoke: very rarely.
Cuss: yes
Sing well: karamo thinks so. christine thinks not.
Sing in the shower: sometimes
Talk to yourself --a lot--: notreally.
Believe in yourself: sometimes.
Like taking these longass surveys? yes
Play an instrument: yes...i try at least.
Want to go to college? probably takes up too much of my life already. :/
Want to get married? yes
Want to have children? yes
Think you're a health freak? in some respects
Get along with your parents? sometimes
Get along with your siblings? yuck...with that bitch of a sister? hellnah
Think you're popular? hmm...i hope so.

[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]

Gone out of state? no
Drank alcohol: yes.
Smoke: no
Get high: no
Done any drugs: well i drank. ooh...wait, i have caffiene everday, and ssris. and probably pain killers. so yes, i am a drugged up person.
Eaten an entire box of oreos? no.
Been on stage? no, but i did make a town meeting announcement
Gone skinny dipping? no
Been dumped? no
Dyed your hair? no
Stolen anything? i probably stole money from my mom.

[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]

Craziest? priya, jen, kirin, meredith, cassi, lisa, lauren, mads, meagan
Loudest? cassi, meredith
Most shy? elizabeth, kirin and jen are all shy at first but then they are not once you get to know them
Blondest? alex and morgan...oh and christina chapman but i dont think she is my friend
Smartest? elizabeth, christine, priya, alex, sarah
Kindest? everyone is kind in their own way.
Best personality? Everyone
Most talented? Everyone
Best singer? christina aguilera
Most ghetto? me
Drama Queen ((or King XP))? cassi, lisa, ish, meredith
Pain in the ass? cassi when she makes me drive her everyhwere
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))? rachel zatkin. (you're right kirin...i give her the evil eye!)
Funniest? everyone
Best person for advice? everyone
Dependable? everyone
Trustworthy? everyone
Druggie? cassi
Most likely to end up in jail? kit...only because she gets caught for everything!
Person you've known the longest? cassi...since the womb

[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]

Last dream? that i had a watch like hermione's in "prisoner of azkaban" so that i could be more than one place at once and i could be in a play (probably cuz i was just talking about that with kirin!)
Last nightmare? that elizabeth was mad at me because she thought i was her secret santa and i hadn't gotten her anything
Car ride? from little bentley to my mom's house
Last time you cried? hmm...maybe a couple of weeks ago..
Last movie seen? mean girls
Last movie rented? i don't remember...i haven't rented a movie in AGES.
Last book read? a fourth grade math book (for maya)
Last word said? "alone" (as in the savage garden song "crash and burn you're not alone". i guess i more sang it than said it.)
Last curse word said: i fucking swear bitch
Last time you laugh? at tutoring
Last phone call? to katie brokich, oddly enough
Last CD played? one of hte many mixes in my car
Last song you listened to? crash and burn by savage garden (hahah, i know)
Last annoyance? im hungry
Last IM? kirin
Last weird encounter? mr. schug this afternoon!
Last person you hugged? my mommy this morning (i dont think i hugged anyone today at school?!?! that is sad!)
Last person you yelled at? adrianne lee this morning when i told her "I'm ready!" when we were doing band thingies at swimming. it wasn't an angry yell though.
Last time you've been evil? i cut someone off today
Sarcastic? dude, i live with rubs off. so most likely very recently
Last time you fought with your parents? yesterday morning my mom got kind of mad at me.
Last time you wished upon a star? figuratively or literally...?
Played Truth or Dare? a long ass time ago.
Spent quality time alone? right now...well if you cuold call this quality

[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]

Are you talking to someone on AIM? yes
Do you feel lonely? not really
Ever TP'd someone's house? nope
How about egging someone's house? no
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ew.
What do you think of George Bush? not the sharpest tool in the shed. not the best president for our country. i can't say i'm a fan.
Any secret fetishes? yo momma.
Do you like to wear chains?hahahahaha
How many languages do you speak? 1.7 (1 for english, .6 for spanish, .1 for hebrew)
Glad this is over? yes it is time for history
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