i want to have fun but nothing seems to really do that recently. getting fucked up every night isn't really my thing, and i feel like i've just been bitchy or distant from almost everyone lately, and just plain sick of everything. sorry if i've been like this to you, it's my shit and it doesn't have to do with you. i'm not really sure what's going on, or why i'm doing this but i hope i get over it soon. it's too familiar.
i'm so melodramatic and whiny, but i guess it doesn't make this feeling any less legitimate.