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summer's gonna come it's gonna cloud our eyes again

Posted on 2005.06.03 at 15:11
Music: decembrists-sixteen military wives
school is officially completely over. summer is here. get juiced...?

for some reason i can't. i'm trying to tell myself that i'm just stressed/dreading sat 2's tomorrow, and once i'm completely done with that i will feel better. but somehow i know that's not it. i just feel like there's always going to be something to do, something to stress over and summer just isn't going to be as tight as i expected it to be. i'll always find something to keep me from being happy or enjoying myself entirely and i know that so many of the things i've been dissatisfied with lately aren't going to change just because school is out. if anything, the abundance of free time and reduced obligations will only make those things worse. but no, i'm supposed to be excited about all of that freedom, right? right now i don't feel so much excited as empty.

i hope i'm proven wrong. i can't have fun unless i let myself, and a bad attitude is nowhere to start. (w00t! let's be positive.)

okay, sorry, that was a downer. time to see the pants movie, which i am actually VERY juiced about.


chocolate_horse at 2005-06-03 22:51 (UTC) (Link)
i feel the same way
ex_mirages347 at 2005-06-04 04:22 (UTC) (Link)
=/ i didnt see you at all today... you didnt sign my yearbook! id say im disappointed that i didnt get to sign yours. but im horrible at them they always come out dumb or ummmm dumb. hehe. anyways, i feel as if theres been no closure. it feels like any second im going to be told to get up and get to school.
jess_is_here at 2005-06-04 04:55 (UTC) (Link)
i think it will feel more like summer after sats. but yeah, i was sad i didn't see you today, except in your car. haha. i didn't really feel like sticking around for yearbooks, so no one wrote in mine. i will sign yours if you want though!
see you tomorrow or sunday or something probably,
chocolate_horse at 2005-06-07 21:12 (UTC) (Link)
i'm not the only one who didn't stay for yearbook signing?
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